Following the Butterflies...

Following the Butterflies...
One touch of nature makes the whole world kin. ~William Shakespeare

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Here I am World, I am facing my fears

Here I am World, I am facing my fears

(I posted this on facebook because I thought it was "safer" meaning less people would see it, but if I'm going to get real, I might as well show my ass to the world. Maybe I should change the title to confessions of a lunatic? LOL)


One of my guests on the show, Tobias Lars who has become one of my greatest teachers in this life explained that the fiercest warriors and bravest in battle were the ones that wore their "weaknesses" on their helmets or armor or even tattooed on their shoulders for the world to see.

So, I figured I would give it a try, since basically everything else I have done and known doesn't work...hiding in a cave, suppressing my emotions, covering it up with something else (fill in the blank), etc.........

So here goes:

Hi, my name is Christie.

(Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii Christie)

I am emotionally too sensitive

I push good people away from me because I'm afraid of being hurt by them

I give too much of my self and forget that I need to heal myself within before I can be of use to other people

I have abandonment issues

I'm afraid of writing

I'm afraid of money

I'm afraid of feeling my emotions

I judge and fall into the separation game

I'm afraid no one will ever love me

I'm afraid I will always be alone

I'm afraid I'll never be good enough

I'm afraid of my own gifts

One of my major fears for most of my life was water. I could not get in water more than knee high because I would hyperventilate. Yeah, so I almost drowned this life (and in the past), so that could be the easy thing to blame it on, but I think it goes much deeper......water represents emotions, moods, feelings...like the watery moon..........so I sit here today realizing that the fear was not of drowning. I'm not afraid of death, it was fear of feeling my emotions and getting real with myself, all the things I suppressed this whole life time (and who knows? maybe other life times too). If I avoided it, then I wouldn't have to feel....or so I thought.

In 2010 I made a goal to get over my fear of water. I found myself completely submerged in water in 2010, even swam...a few weeks ago, I walked in a lake in the dark ( https://www.facebook.com/note.php?note_id=10150135482818078 ), so I think I made it over that...........however, I had no idea what else I was in store for. I figured, heck, I was in the water, I'm done, I won!!! LMAO Riiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiight.................it has been an endless flood of emotions ever since...

In fact I look at all my "weaknesses" above and find they are all emotional based fears.

So here I sit today fully naked and weak on my knees.

Will it ever stop? I've been told so, and I guess time will tell...

But I remain strong in the face of the enemy...me.

I embrace my fuckeduptedness.

Hello world, it's me, can you see?

I recognize you, do you recognize me?

I will strive to no longer look at my "weaknesses" as less than the rest of the parts that encompass my whole. How can one declare a human emotion or trait as "less than," when the whole is a perfect piece of God/Goddess/DivineSource? Are they all not necessary? Are not our so called "strengths" interchangeable with our so called "weaknesses" depending on the circumstance and/or perception related to the situation at hand? I know some of my "greatest" traits that others respect/admire are also my greatest weaknesses and inhibitors.

It is our judgements and beliefs that lead us to self hatred, therefore hatred of others and that which is around us. The whole is LOVE and we must first discover love of ourselves if we are to overcome our "weaknesses." What is perceived on the outside is a direct manifestation of what we feel about ourselves in our essence. If we don't like what we see, perhaps we must take time to check ourselves.

I will continue to strive to get past that place of judgement, not only towards others, but of myself, since we are one...you are me, I am you, we are the all that there is. I am sorry for judging you, me, we.

Not sure if this is making me stronger, but I will no longer be afraid of my real feelings, my deeper emotions, what I have allowed to hold me back in this physical manifestation of this lifetime. Let me be done with this so I can move on to experience the fullness of my worth, the magnificent beauty that all of life has to offer...from the darkest blackest of nights to the pure joy of ecstasy. I choose to leave these fears behind and move to a place of love where I can be me, all of me at every moment in this time lapse, or none of me...and accept that I am all of the above, yet none of the above because I am only love. I am eternal and divine. I am love, loving and loveable. I am thankful for my experiences and for the Universe allowing me to continue on the path that I chose....and for kicking my ass occasionally to uproot me when I stray.

As I will not tolerate outside abuse, I will no longer tolerate self abuse and hatred. I will love myself and I have only deep gratitude for that strength that has brought me here today. I will shower only love and truth, bring honor to everyone I cross paths with everywhere I go. I am grateful for this beautiful opportunity and the wealth of knowledge and gifts you have provided for me.

I look forward to the rest of the ride with an open heart and optimism as I know I am not alone, I am all-ONE.

Thank you for being me, thank you for being you.

Thank you for being perfect despite my judgements about what things "should" be due to my own lack of knowledge.

Thank you for teaching me and bringing to me a new life, without limitations, without self imposed restrictions and thank you for forgiving me for the destruction I have brought upon myself and others for not being whole.

Thursday, March 31, 2011

Kundalini Rising - Curse or Blessing? with Shaman Avalon Sakti

Kundalini Rising - Curse or Blessing? with Shaman Avalon Sakti



http://www.way-of-the-wild-rose.com/

Much is spoken in New Age circles about Kundalini, aka the serpent power, the cosmic power that can bestow enlightenment, supernatural powers (siddhis) and transcendental bliss. There are even courses offered to raise your Kundalini. But think before you leap! Do you actually know what you are in for when your Kundalini begins to rise? What new age teachers do not tell you is that lack of proper preparation and knowledge can lead to the most traumatic experience thinkable and cause a multitude of problems, physical, mental, emotional and spiritual, plus in most cases alienation from friends and loved ones, who fail to understand what is going on with you. Instead of experiencing transcendental bliss you may go through a dark night of the soul and feel as if cursed. This is increasingly true when a Kundalini awakening happens in a negative environment, such as in a polluted environment and a materialistic, mind controlled world, where being different is being frowned upon.

Join Christie Aphrodite from Truthbrigade Radio and Avalon Sakti, a shaman and Yoga Master who experienced a full Kundalini awakening in 2006 culminating in the cosmic experience in 2008, to learn more about Kundalini, its beauty and blessings and the pitfalls, which are best avoided.

Learn about the chakra system and how it is tied to your spiritual evolution, what can happen when you are not sufficiently prepared for an awakening, the side effects of Kundalini, both positive and negative, and how to alleviate any potential problems.

Avalon Sakti also gives advice on what to do if you experience the “dark night of the soul” which is a very difficult phase that spiritual seekers encounter and have to pass through on the path to bliss and liberation. Come join us for an enlightening evening!

http://truthbrigade.com/

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Men & Women - Will they ever meet? with Tobias Lars

Men & Women - Will they ever meet? with Tobias Lars Part 1



- why can't women and men form functioning relationships?
- why can't we be honest with each other?
- what is the woman afraid of?
- what is the man afraid of?
- where is the Heart caught in between?
- can we handle the "Truth" about sex and love?
- will the current model of relationships change into something else?
- what does ego & ownership of "the other" have to do with the arrested development of true Love on Earth at this time?
- will truth about these topics trigger both men and women to reject the information?

Tobias Lars BS, MBA - Author of "Listening to The Sun" & "Awakening Souls". Personal Awakening Coach http://www.SoulCounseling.com
Creator of http://www.CourseOfAwakening.com
http://innerbodyawakening.com/
http://alchemyprocess.com/
http://spiritravel.com/
928 451 9068


Listen to all Tobias' archives here:
http://aphroditechristina.blogspot.com/2010/07/archives-tobias-lars-on-truthbrigade.html

Part 2 here:
http://truthbrigade.org/smf/index.php/topic,7266.0.html

http://truthbrigade.com/

Friday, March 18, 2011

How important is Water with Dr Wayne Pickering

How important is Water with Dr Wayne Pickering



Our Special Guest is Dr. Wayne Pickering "THE AMBASSADOR for HEALTH" from Daytona Beach, Florida and this week his topic will be WATER

In this 6th of the series you'll discover:

1) How does the right kind of Water play a vital role in our Staying Well For Life.
2) How much is enough
3) What's the best kind to drink
4) When to drink it
5) What to drink when you are flying and how much
6) What about good Well Water
7) About pure clean Rain Water…is it?
8) Is Bottled Water all that good for you?
9) What about Spring Water?
10) How secure are Water Filters…are they really safe?
11) How about Boiling Water?
12) What does the American Journal of Public Health say about Chlorinated Water?
13) What about Mineral Water?
14) How do you know if you are drinking enough?
15) What kind of water do most physicians recommend those who have kidney stones?
16) Does Distilled Water cause Mineral Loss?

Part 2 here:
http://truthbrigade.org/smf/index.php/topic,7262.0.html

http://truthbrigade.com/